Well it’s been about three weeks since I’ve been laid off from my job in the pharmaceutical manufacturing industry. It angers me that, the Israeli pharmaceutical company that bought the company I was working for, raves at how the acquisition will be great for the European market. That’s fucked how they can put me out of work, then tell me how good its going to be for people over seas. Call me selfish, but what the fuck do I care about the European market; it doesn’t help feed MY family!

I’ve submitted my resume to about a dozen pharmaceutical manufacturing companies; I’m constantly search Monster.com, CareerBuilder.com, and other job searching sites. There is just no work out there right now and it doesn’t look like it will get better anytime soon.

My stress level is the highest it’s ever been; wondering if I am going to lose my house (a very good possibility I will). There is no help out there for me until things (the bills) get too far-gone. I called all my creditors explaining to them my situation, with hopes they will work with me on monthly payments, but they all said I must be consistently delinquent, or fall far behind before anything can be done. Who the fuck wants to wait for things to get to that point before receiving any assistance? I don’t!!!… I guess trying to stay a customer in good graces isn’t what the banks want from us. I’ll just have to sit back and wait to start “drowning” before I could POSSIBLY be considered for help!!!.. I’ll need to start ignoring bills based on priority. Let the outstanding balances grow and grow, then when they send them to collection, ignore them some more and let them spend lots of money on legal fees. No matter what I do it will ruin my credit rating, so I figure let the banks spend the money they extorted from the U.S government bail-out.